He is jealous for me.

Last night I slept on the floor here in the hotel. I pulled together a bunch of pillows and hit the hay. As I was laying there I decided to put on the new CD from Passion 2010 “Awakening."  I drifted in and out through out the night and caught some highlights of the CD but at 4:14 I woke up.

"How He Loves Us” came on and something come over me and my chest began to tighten. The lyrics in this song came rushing over, I felt something I had never felt in the 22 years of my life.  I began to weep on the floor in the hotel. It was something about being humbled sleeping on the floor and just being happy and content with the fact that God gave me a roof, a blanket, and a group of friends around me.

Over and over I kept saying to myself He is jealous for me. I thought about how I’m this little 22 year old man on this giant earth full of people and our Great God cares enough for this one man laying on the floor of a hotel room to be jealous to have my life in his hands.  So jealous that he sacrificed, let his Son die to save my life.  He is jealous for me, He is jealous for you, He is jealous for all of us.

This led to me reciting the lyric How He Loves Us. I tend to forget how much He does love us. I began to think about my life and all the ways God has loved me. The greatest evidence of His love is my parents. Its my mother holding me in her arms from the day I was brought into this world. Its my father teaching me to throw a baseball. Its my mother teaching me how to play piano. Its my father telling me “I’ll get em next time” when I strike out to end the game. Its my mother and father understanding I have to move 800 miles away to grow up. Its my parents providing for me and believing in this insane dream that I share with 4 other guys.  Their love is Gods love on this earth.  Its God putting 2 men in my life to help me through the toughest time I have ever had. Its God putting a church in my life to keep my heart focused. Its God gracing me with relationships to help me grow in His love even when I don’t see it or understand it.  Its God putting 4 other men in my life who share this incredible passion to dedicate their lives to making it happen just like I want to. He Loves Us.

He is jealous for me,
Loves like a hurricane, I am a tree,
Bending beneath the weight of his wind and mercy.
When all of a sudden,
I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory,
And I realize just how beautiful You are,
And how great Your affections are for me.

And oh, how He loves us so,
Oh how He loves us,
How He loves us all

Yeah, He loves us,
Oh! how He loves us,
Oh! how He loves us,
Oh! how He loves.


We are His portion and He is our prize,
Drawn to redemption by the grace in His eyes,
If grace is an ocean, we’re all sinking.
And Heaven meets earth like an unforseen kiss,
And my heart turns violently inside of my chest,
I don’t have time to maintain these regrets,
When I think about, the way…

I beg of you to listen to this song and meditate on it.